urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blackicelycan blackicelycan blackicelycan 2005-12-22T22:31:56Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:blackicelycan:363 2005-12-22T22:31:56Z 2005-12-22T22:31:56Z So two days after christmas I get to move into a new house start a new routine. It may only be a few blocks away but I feel like I am jumping into a whole new world without ever wanting it to change. The logical part of me says hey they haven't been happy for longer than you can remember. They haven't been happy since when your sister was born. My sister is three years older than me. They haven't stopped fighting since your grandmother died when you were seven. This family will be happier with them apart. A neat freak and a slob, a saver with a spender never works. You will live with your mom who is a saver and a neat freak. Life will be different but it will get better. But all i feel right now is sad because all that is a happening is fighting Kelsey and her boyfriend are going to be renting out the bottom floor from my dad and they are fighting and they yell at each other and me over stupid reasons. My mom is pissy because she has been living out of boxes and on a coach in the upstairs. I am so sick of it. I have to cook dinner for nine people on christmas eve. Four of them act like I am not even apart of my own family. And i just want to sit down and cry. Why should this matter<br />No I am going downstairs to pack the rest of my stuff. <br />Listen to music.<br />And plan what dinner will be on Saturday<br />And find out how I am going to get through christmas.